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Was so tired last night, laid in bed and rehashed the last few months of dad's grueling battle and.prayed for what seemed like hours. Hubby is on travel so the house was quiet and still, was just me and God having a long conversation.

The whole time dad was in the hospital I felt like not only was he under attack, but that I was too. Demons trying to get to me thru my father, a nonstop daily assault, He fought until the very end, until God finally reached down and grabbed his hand and pulled him to Heaven. Pain and suffering are no more.

I remain here, the fight continues. The demons will never break me. I prayed for renewed strength and healing, handed it all over to God and when I woke up this morning with the sun, at 5:55, I was filled with energy, peace and calm, Thanked God for a renewed spirit and went for a hike, It felt fitting, one foot in front of the other. JUST KEEP GOING.

Saguaros were blooming, seeing them felt like God and my daddy smiling from Heaven

I am so sorry. It is a testament of your faith to lift your head up to see God's glory. When my mother was in ICU I saw her struggling with dark entities. She was intubated. I asked to take on her fight and boy did I. All night I fought with the devil. He kept trying to get me to say God didn't exist. It was a battle. Lots of taunting. That night she gained a little more function in her liver but she lost the battle after 10 days. They mishandled a staph infection after bypass surgery. She never left the hospital. My poor Momma died of toxic shock. I was even attacked in the hospital by the surgeon's nurse telling me I better not sue. You see the doc came clean with me and my Dad and said it was all his fault. He left my mom open on the operating table to do a heart transplant. It was God that made him say that. My Dad was satisfied and didn't want to sue. He said, I don't want to make money on her suffering.

I am so sorry about your mom, sounds like you endured many horrors as did I. Sending you love. 💗🙏🏼

It's unspeakable the way doctors, surgeons and nurses behaved, like they had been taken over by demons. I slept overnight so many nights watching over my dad trying to protect him. One nurse ripped out his feeding tube and he was without nutrition for almost a week and went downhill quickly after that, another cut his privates twice then jammed a straight catheter too far and severely injured his bladder which ended up causing serious bleeding issues and many transfusions. So many issues were caused by the hospital, they over medicated, mistreated him and one CNA sexually assaulted him and we had to bring in hospital administration. Horror upon horror, I never want to be in a place like that again. They pushed my mother out of his room and said they were intubating him, he was vented 45 days and was never able to tell her he loved her again after that. Fought darkness every day.

Hospitals are a nightmare. I can't imagine how you and Mother are processing it all. The sadness never goes away. The thing that got us through was faith. I talked to so many people in the ICU waiting room and heard so many stories. My father went through a surgical nightmare too. One lady talked about a doctor who stayed beside her the whole time she was in ICU. She found out later it was an angel because when she tried to find him he didn't exist. He held her hand and comforted her. I can only hope that was what my mom and your dad were experiencing too.