It’s totally normal to feel that way because you suffered trauma from losing someone that you love and have known since he was a child. The trauma manifests in the body in different ways…some can’t sleep, some get pain in their neck, others get panic attacks, and some can’t get things like daily chores done.

I would Google some relaxation breathing exercises on you tube that are guided that talk you through releasing this sadness pain related energy. I fall asleep to them often like the 432 mhz.

Here is a great one from gabby Bernstein that she practices daily and uses to help her 5 year old son fall asleep. I’ll post the link. I have her books. Tony Robbins is the king of helping to release negative energy google his works. I am sorry for your loss 🙏

https://gabbybernstein.com...