When I suffered my loss, I didn't think I'd make it the next minute. I didn't know how my heart could endure the wretched pain it was in. I spent time curled up on the floor screaming and sobbing and hugging his clothes until I fell asleep. I don't know how but each day came and went and slowly I was able to hold on to moments at a time. I promise you too will get there. Your pain is understood and you are seen honey.