Oh Joey...I'm so sorry. I truly believe that God is going to redeem that which has been lost to you..."In the end, God restored all that Job had lost, and gave Job twice as much as he had before. The Lord blessed him with a long life, and with seven more sons, and three more daughters who were the most beautiful women in all the land!" I truly believe that. “For I know that my Redeemer lives, And He shall stand at last on the earth.” This reveals the perspective Job had in his trials. Life had been difficult; he had suffered and lost much yet his hope and faith was to the time when the Lord would come in righteousness, restoring what was lost, and bringing peace. Just hang on Joey. God bless you and keep you and make His face to shine upon you and give you peace. Hugs in Christ!