Try not to worry about it friend. I have felt all the same emotions you are feeling now and i'm sure many other anons have too. Gratitude is a great leveller. Instead of focusing on a new job, home or making more money be grateful for all the good things in your life. And don't think you've nothing to be grateful for. I find being grateful for the smaller things is just as rewarding. I am currently thankful for having running water after watching an episode of The Chosen where the women have to walk great distances to fetch water from a well.
Try to find the good in everthing (even the bad). I'm grateful for losing my rights. December 2021 i was unable to enter 90% of the shops i went to to do my Christmas shopping for my kids because i wasn't vaccinated. That experience gave me greater empathy to the indigenous people of this land who have lost their rights for over 2oo years.
And although life is difficult at the moment have FAITH that The Best Is Yet To Come.
Much love Patriot