Confession:
I went quiet on you guys, I walled off and shut you out and for that I'm sorry. 😔 I convinced myself no one cares anyways. I have struggled for a long time now with PTSD, anxiety and depression. You wouldn't even know it because I hide it so well 😅 I have lied and said I'm happy when I'm not so I didn't have to feel isolated. It's a constant internal battle to be honest about when I'm in pain because in the past it's been met with abandonment. I learned to perform so I wouldn't be alone. Even if I was in anguish inside you'd never know on the outside because I bury it. Even now as I type this I can feel that same fear that people will stop talking to me because I'm not posting only good things. I'm sorry I'm so fearful about sharing my negative emotions.

I care for you Serah without ever seeing you or knowing you because He said to love one another as He loves us, love the neighbor as the self, do unto others as we would like others to do for us. Life is all about loving God’s children. You have nothing to be ashamed of. Please stay with us, we all need each other. I fall short all day long, I confess it and try again. You are loved🙏🤍

This was so moving to read I could feel the gentle love in every word! I'll stay with you, I can't stay away anyways I love my AU and I also love you fren! 🕊🙏🤍