In my security monitoring file it will say that I have partied really hard. That's because I have partied really hard. The thing is... I don't give a cr*p about reputation anyway, and haven't done anything that directly hurt anyone, so it's ordinary human misadventure.

"Urban gay male in London partied hard... more in 10pm bulletin... YAWN!" I don't want reward, position, privilege, power, authority... so who cares how hard I have played? Doesn't mean it's a virtuous thing. But it is what it is. No leverage for anyone!

The real vice I see everywhere is religious spirits. Much worse and harder to kick than other destructive habits.

Are you hanging in there with us, Martin? We hope so and we're glad youre here. You're not alone. Dont take the black pill. Stay vulnerable and like it.

whered you get the doubting from out of this?

Just asking on a vibe. Timezones. Those that know cant sleep. No doubt.

man just doesnt wanna be judged for things he likes to do

the majority of it comes from religious fanatics

I dont know him as well as you obviously. You ask a lot of questions.