...and i resent all of it. i do not forget or forgive. send me straight to hell but i want vengeance. i want accountability. i want action. something, any fucking thing to happen without needing a decode or have to have significance of something explained to me like a child. so yeah we should be thankful for being manipulated all to hell and back. this my fren, we must disagree on. all i have wanted for almost 20 fkn yrs is to forget. alcoholism and few addictions later and i still just wish to forget. why tf would i want any of these memories? thats not strength, that is Stockholm syndrome.