I don't really like the word test
It implies a judge, a score, things like that
No one is pointing a gun at us and saying you gotta stay
we can all quit anytime
so
I like it better this way
we are testing ourselves
I want to get to end of it because I choose to, I want to
not because I have to pass a test
I feel unconfortable I say fook it,
I move on
I gets doubts and I go whatch you doing here?
I get scared cuz I don't understand what is going on I go maaaad I don't like not knowing ...
but then It all calms down, and it gets quiet in my mind and my Heart tells me a different story
And I stay
Because in all this mess I still know what good is
So...
yes I guess I "pass" this test daily...
I am the judge though, I decide the score it is me that puts the obstacles there
Certainly not [ them] not anymore I see [their] game
Certainly not God, the God I talk to, the infinite source of unconditional love...he's watching he just wants me to realize what I can do
On my o