The process of detachment - necessary to survive the emotional/spiritual attacks from those closest to my heart - has led me to a place of solitude and present moment awareness.

No longer do I plan for a personal future, create dreams, imagine my life here with family... I simply cannot see further anymore, nor do I seem to want to, nor do they seem to want me.

This has been replaced by a deeper feeling / pull... out, away, far, far away... where all this finally ends. I Am not the same as I was.

I feel sad letting go... of the life I held dear without the knowledge of what will replace the habit of those old dreams, of certain certainties I believed in that comforted....all been stripped away.

I have work to do along side with you all, but after we have fulfilled our calling, I feel I simply don't belong here/anywhere anymore.
Nothing fits.

How many members are there on AU? That legit number (excluding trolls, of which I don’t see many) is not even the entirety of our kind, but your sentiment really speaks of each one of us. I am only a bit sad for anyone who needs to know about AU but has not found their way here yet.

Funny, not that long ago I could not even sell an old car without a sentiment attached... and how far we have come now to understand that some people may not reside in our reality. Now it is not a feeling melancholy, detaching from family and friends, rather a thirst for real truth, a duty to find it, and a faith that leads the way.

I am thankful we can share these thoughts and know in this respect that we certainly are not alone. 🙏🏻💞