The process of detachment - necessary to survive the emotional/spiritual attacks from those closest to my heart - has led me to a place of solitude and present moment awareness.

No longer do I plan for a personal future, create dreams, imagine my life here with family... I simply cannot see further anymore, nor do I seem to want to, nor do they seem to want me.

This has been replaced by a deeper feeling / pull... out, away, far, far away... where all this finally ends. I Am not the same as I was.

I feel sad letting go... of the life I held dear without the knowledge of what will replace the habit of those old dreams, of certain certainties I believed in that comforted....all been stripped away.

I have work to do along side with you all, but after we have fulfilled our calling, I feel I simply don't belong here/anywhere anymore.
Nothing fits.

it can be comparable to going to war . Friends and family do not underatand the emotional and physical trauma of what you have experienced so you withdraw from those relationships at least for now. Only in this case they will all be pulled into this war during declass and you will become the center of their world full of knowledge and spirtual guidence. I believe that will be our purpose our meaning to pull them out of the darkness they do not yet see. We all have friends and family still stuck in the Matrix the truth has been very hard to face. Stay strong there is more of us in your same boots than you know!