Let's Confession Something and see how it feelz...

I'll go first.

I pretended to be Jewish so I would get a good deal on TV commercial spots.

I used to be too scared to start a family after seeing so many parents lose their kids young. My throat is closing up when I type this because its a difficult topic for me to share. Not having kids yet has made me feel like a failure. But I am finally letting all that go & am excited to start a family no matter what might happen. I’ve always trusted God, so there was never a reason to feel as I did. Part of it is programming/manipulation on me, part of it was my own deeply emotional soul, part of it was that I put too much into my career for the past 10 years & part of it was fear. I’ve already spent plenty of time being ashamed of myself for it, so please don’t anyone beat me up more than I’ve beat myself up. I’m ready to let it go & start a beautiful family. And God knows I will put them first always & pour my heart & soul into them, if I’m lucky enough to have them & I believe I will be.

Please don't beat yourself up over this (and i'm sure no one on AU will beat you up over it). Some people were meant to have children and others are not. If it is God's will then so shall it be.
13 years ago i remember getting a phone call from a casual fling telling me she was pregnant. I thought my world was over (i even hoped she would have an abortion, for which i have repented). Turns out it was one of my greatest blessings from God along with my other 2 beautiful offspring.
My sister and her husband would be awesome parents but are unfortunately unable to have any, even after 3 rounds of very expensive IVF. That in no way makes them a failure in life.
I believe everything happens for a reason even if we don't realize what it is at the time (or we might never innerstand why it happened or didn't happen) as it is God's plan and it is divine.
I am sure if it is God's will, you will be an AWESOME parent.
Walk by FAITH not by sight