You are untouchable, know this, choose, fear not what can be done to the body, but indeed what can be done to Your Soul, no matter what God chooses all you experience, so get inline with Him, have Faith, and if all goes sideways, it was what has been chosen for You, either way this is not the world we seek, that comes after you step out, so just enjoy life freely while acknowledging God in the pain and joy seeking to only Glorify Him through His Plan which was set for You from the start.