Coincidence? My name is also Joe. I too have experienced what your going through and want to give you hope that when this is over your family will come to you and hug you and look to you for future advice. All the pain you have endured was for a good cause and your mind will finally be at ease. You sacrificed your friends and family for what will turn out to be a selfless act that had all of their best interest in mind long term. Do not despair, you are on the right side of history and you should be proud of yourself. Never give up! The best is yet to come!