I'm so done with the life i have lived and am living. At this point I don't care what happpens. I just need some peace or I'm done. Praying doesn't help so I just at this point wish He would take me. The stress is getting to be too much..Never did I think I would be in this position in life.

It is going to be okay.

Thanks but I will always believe that i will forever be punished for leaving the love of my life and he passed away before i could tell him. 5 days is all i needed and he was taken from me.

Write him a letter in pencil on a white piece of paper. Write everything you wanted to tell him. Take the paper outside and burn it in a clay pot/planter. As it burns, say The Lord's Prayer. The love of your life will now know what you wanted to say to him, and you will feel a great peace, and be able to forgive yourself. Know that we love you, God loves you, and things may look bleak now, but will turn around for the better; you are stronger than you think!

Thank you