I am deeply struggling. I have never been one to attend church, but I have tried to seek God and pray. When I was young I used to read the Bible and my Bible is filled with highlights and underlines from my teenage years. I broke away from "church" and floundered through life avoiding church because I am too much of an introvert and I struggled with judgement from others. I recently began attending a very nice church and after our second attendance the pastor invited us for lunch, but I didn't realize until we got there that he was screening us. I wish he had given us more time to settle in, to just come to the service and listen, rather than bombard us with questions. It felt violating, and I never felt comfortable going back since then. I don't think the pastor approves of me, although he is polite out of his obligation. I decided after a recent situation that I no longer want to go back to that church. Church always makes me feeo too unworthy. I would prefer a home church.