If I can offer you just one piece of advice it would be to pray.

Pray because God really does exist. Pray because it sends help to you or whatever you pray about. That help may not save a life but it will make the death much easier, much more peaceful. Pray because it calms your spirit and gives you strength to know there is something much greater than you. Pray because it renews your faith because in the end faith is everything.

Gods Love for us is the 1% of actual truthful knowledge we have. So 99% of our programming is????
We are deceived. So who is the Deceiver?
If only there was a Book to read 🤓
I give thanks and Praise. Only God could have saved us. We were to far gone.
Only God cared enough to bring us back from the brink of destruction.
We did not and can not just start our own revival.
ALL GLORY TO GOD , his plan is divine.
Keep our Human Kind Heart from the deciet in the mind.