I love the idea of venting everything on social, but
not at the expense of my future timelines.
Knowing that beating myself up is part of my process, makes resisting less easy. Now I said beating myself up but it's not at all exaggerated or blown out of proportion. It's more about brutal honesty, honestly. It can be quite existential. Who am I? Is one of the oldest questions and one of the first ones we ask. Which version is right? The collected mutterings and reposts on X, is that who I am or who I want you to see me as? If I'm lying to myself, how would I know? how could you know? If I'm lying to myself, would that mean I'm unwittingly lying to everyone else?

Honestly would be best, I'm told.
I'm not afraid to say it but I am afraid and fearful and don't want the real world consequences, whatever they may be real or imagined. It's probably not even that bad, I've just been struggling with isolation and severe social anxiety, and a history of making epic mistakes. Issues I go