It`s been/is a major big psyop and we are/have been bang in the middle of it.
It takes a while for the faux smoke to clear, but when it does, yeah, you feel a bit of a twat for having "gone along with " and believed all their clap trap. (been there, done that)
But I believe if you are a true believer, you WILL eventually see through their devious charade and see just strangely how it`s almost like a game of double jeopardy only being played out against the whole of humanity. (Where they have totally protected themselves from prosecution by never being in the spotlight).
But don`t worry, the most important thing you should always remember, "we are being watched over".