SO MANY things happened tragically the last 6 months.

Lost a best friend to addiction.
Found out I had cancer.
Lost my sister, car accident.
Had a total hysterectomy.
Had to flee my marriage 5 days post surgery with 3 dogs, my son, cross country.
Lost my marriage.
A dog.
A job.
My friends.
My home.
My family by abandonment.

They say it’s God’s way of refining, purging you of what’s not meant for you, Gods way of delivering you to life’s purpose.

VERY fine thread.
Darkest place I’ve been.
I’m no longer missed, I’m forgotten. Most alone, everything is eerily quiet, empty. I pray for strength, none left. I pray for answers, inner peace.

I pray for direction, literally lost, drifting. Never leave the house, only work, only place I’m expected. My pain is secret, I’m able to put on fake front. I now understand bewilderment of seeing someone one day, then they’re gone the next. Not suicidal, but I understand how others never know what someone goes throu