I am so sad. Every day. I cannot look into the eyes of a child, or even a puppy without knowing how evil the world will soon be. It takes every bit of light left shining right out of the lantern. It should give me the strength to fight, but it doesn't; it takes more and more a part of me everyday closer we get to the end. But I can't let it bring me down, everyday is one day closer to being back with my wife.