I also habe a hard time eating meat after learning what they do to it. I am researching local farmers who raise chickens outside as God intended and do not use antibiotics etc. when I discovered organic milk that lasted twice as long as the chemical filled kind, a 'farmer' got really mad at me and said it is impossible to not ahoot up cattle with unknown substances. He was really ticked!!! I knew not to associate with him, choosing to pray that God will wake him up.