I grew up Catholic. Being deaf added another unique circumstance to the equation. There are a lot of elements that didn't make any senses to me. The constant same rituals, unable to read lips or understand what the priest is saying (I don't do sign language as I was taught to read lips and speak), the donation packets, and etc. I was questioning a lot. It even gotten to a point I told my parents in my high school age that God can be with you anywhere you go. You don't need a church to worship. The debate was so intense that I shut down and stayed away from the church, To this day, I still do. Instead, I just focus on going through the Bible (not a really good reader but I try when I can) and think about Jesus (who I see as a bridge between us and God). Q despite being a clever psyop actually got me into the importance of prayer.