Honestly...it's been a real personal struggle for me to let my walls down for anyone, I will not do it easily. I use to. I've had to pick up the pieces and rebuild alone many times unfortunately. If anyone is really that curious about what's inside maybe they'll climb.

I can relate. I have been a profoundly different person since I started digging in 2018. It is hard to remember who I was before then. I just don't trust people like I use to. My ability to give people the benefit of the doubt has decreased to an all time low. When I focus on God (which I have not been doing as much these days) it helps me tremendously. I am just tired... battle worn. It is difficult to describe. They say ignorance is bliss and I do miss some of the old less cynical version of myself. The version with less scars that looked at the world through a window that filtered out much of the negative things about our world. I know the only way getting back to who God designed me to be is is through Him. Your honesty is appreciated. Everyone deserves happiness.