I like clarity. No, I love clarity. Clarity is my thing.

All these riddles, puzzles, codes. For some reason they annoy me, and I deeply dislike them. Playing chess, poker, bridge, machiavellian social games, none of that is "my thing". Just makes me recoil at a spiritual level.

This war takes a huge array of people with complementary skills. I can take the work of the coders and decoders, and then put it into a framework so that other people have clarity over how it all ties together. But the coding and decoding of obscured narratives and motives isn't my thing at all. Yet the job I do is probably "dull and difficult" to those who like playing those games.

You should write a book about your experience. It's good therapy and clarity.