This is how I thought as a child. I thought that I could control things. That is why children blame themselves when things go wrong. I also thought that everyone was the same basically. When I found out differently I was depressed for a while. I think we are in some kind of school. Just as in school you can flunk out, slide by, or do well. We come to learn what we need in order to move on. Where we move on I am not sure. I know God is real and Jesus too. We have angels helping. We are very important because we have a divine spark. We are part of God but not God. I am starting to believe in NPC's as of late.