Awake Elf
@Awake_Elf
20 December, 10:05
This week is just difficult, spent last Christmas in hospital bedside, watching my dad die slowly until he passed Boxing day morning.
Got crappy news yesterday that seems to have dashed all hopes of escaping this crackhead community in which we live in fear daily and are threatened in our own home, my kids will suffer this trauma for life and its all my fault for not having the means to escape.
All I dream of is property with no neighbours, peace and quiet to grow food to share with others who need it, to show others via free workshops how to grow food, preserve food, grow and make natural medicines.
My mental health has never been this bad, recent experience of being threatened with a knife by junkie neighbour has stirred up my ptsd that I have had mostly under control for the last 8 years (from an abusive relationship I was in since I was 15).
Why does it all come down to money?!
I feel like a complete failure and have lost all hope.
Got crappy news yesterday that seems to have dashed all hopes of escaping this crackhead community in which we live in fear daily and are threatened in our own home, my kids will suffer this trauma for life and its all my fault for not having the means to escape.
All I dream of is property with no neighbours, peace and quiet to grow food to share with others who need it, to show others via free workshops how to grow food, preserve food, grow and make natural medicines.
My mental health has never been this bad, recent experience of being threatened with a knife by junkie neighbour has stirred up my ptsd that I have had mostly under control for the last 8 years (from an abusive relationship I was in since I was 15).
Why does it all come down to money?!
I feel like a complete failure and have lost all hope.
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and btw - again - it also is not your "fault" you haven't been able to escape. do you ever think about starting an online fundraiser (givesendgo - just not go fund me) - to raise the funds to start that community you seek? i have...........maybe it's time..........i have a telegram group i started months ago because i was tired of waiting for this new world. it's small and going nowhere. but i keep at it because i have felt for YEARS enough of us working together - raising capital - we can do this - maybe not as freely as we would like as long as still are in this system - but it would be much better than where you are.
02:32 AM - Dec 23, 2022
In response Awake Elf to her Publication
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Awake Elf
@Awake_Elf
03 March, 06:08
In response Victoria ~ Z Skywalker to her Publication
This is a brilliant idea, but Im useless at asking for help. I have been putting it out there to the universe that I need help, that if it is meant to be this has to be the year it happens (I need to be set up before my health conditions make the 'hard work of starting this all' impossible for me.
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