I lost my son just over a year ago in a tragic accident. My wife and I were numb for a whole month++. We stayed faithful in prayer, church and surrounded ourselves with family. We had spiritual confirmations that he was near and gave us many signs of his dimensional presence. Not having the physical presence is the hardest part. I get it through and through. The pain changes but never truly goes away. The tears and moments will lessen over time. Know that this existence is a drop in the ocean. We will be entangled and reunited for eternity one day. My prayers go out to you and your family.